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it's finally warm!

let me just say that today was, by far, the most beautiful, warm day i have felt since i've been back from texas! the sun was shining and all was well! although i can't say i'm enjoying the bees being back... i am deathly afraid of flying things and while i was cutting flowers i happened upon a wasp nest. :o let's just say my flailing of arms while running back inside probably wasn't a pretty sight...

i know, i know... i haven't been on here in forever, and i don't really have any good reasons as to why, either.

so. update.

i just got back from texas 2 or 3 weeks ago... i came home the day my little sister left, so i haven't seen her in almost 2 months! she turned 13 on friday! i almost can't believe it. it really does feel like she's growing up just too fast!

                                                     

school has been... school. i have neverevereverever been more excited for school to be over. i don't usually get like this, but it's how i feel! i am looking forward to summer. a lot. i can't wait to sit on the beach. i can't wait to see my camp friends.

i just can't wait for sunshine!!

this past weekend some of the kids in our youth group went to harvest bible for a children's ministry training seminar and i gained quite a bit of knowledge on how to lead a child to Christ! it was also great to see some of my quizzing friends if just for a morning!

speaking of quizzing, our rally is next saturday!! :D super excited...

well, i had better got some sleep sometime :p.

keep smiling.

news...

this is my baby brother or sister!!

i found out that my dad and step mom were expecting in November, but i didn't really get around to telling anyone... i'm so excited to have a new sibling!

i can't explain how much i love this little guy (who i've affectionately named Ferdinand) even though i've never even met him. it's a weird yet beautiful feeling.

i pray for him a lot.

i pray that he'll be healthy and strong when he finally arrives in July.

i pray that he'll be surrounded by people who love him to death.

i pray that i'll be the best sister i can be and help him though every stage of his life.

and i pray that he'll grow up to know God and come to a point in his life when he can say that he has accepted Christ.


i love this kid.

Lies about homeschoolers...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJHt-m3VX6o

Seven lies about homeschooling.

lol.

valentine...

(:

cripple kid...

this has seriously become my new name at home and church. not that i really mind, but these crutches are getting old!

what happened, you ask?

i could make up a completely "cool" story to tell whenever one asks me , but sorry. it's really quite lame. i was doing a pretty impressive balancing act on an ottoman and it flipped and, well, so did i. the outcome was an extremely sprained ankle. but i came really close to hitting my head on the banister so it could have been much worse than it is. i'm taking painkillers and my foot must be wrapped up and braced for six weeks (it seems faaar to long to me...).

i'm very sure that in a few days i'll be off my crutches (that have been beautifully decorated with blue bows!) and be on my limping way...

Room...

 I never really understood why people posted pictures of all their stuff and posted it on their blogs.

I get it now.

I have spent the past year organizing and decorating the space in our upstairs hall that was once my brothers bedroom, into my own space. I do everything in this room; from my devotions to writing to reading to music. While this is not my actual "bedroom" (the room where my bed is), I spend far more time in here than in there. Over the past week or two I have acquired picture frames and found some really cool printables (thank to Pinterest!) and have finally gotten all of them up and where I want them to be. I love the outcome of all my work to make this little space mine!

 And here we go with the pictures....

my drawers FINALLY organized....

I pray that I may become more like Him, less than me, every day.

Waiting...

Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;

Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...

And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word."

"My future and all to which I relate

Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?

I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,

Or even a 'no' to which I can resign."

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,

We need but to ask, and we shall receive.

And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:

I'm weary of asking! I need a replay"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,

As my Master replied again, "Wait.

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,

And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...

and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.

You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.

You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.

You'd not know the power that I give to the faint."

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;

You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.

You'd not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence are all you can see."

"You'd never experience the fullness of love

When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.

You would know that I give, and I save for a start,

But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart."

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight.

The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask

From and infinite God who makes what you have last."

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.

Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,

But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you."

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see

That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.

And though oft My answers seem terrible late,

My most precious answer of all is still...Wait."

God is with me...

pictures...

yesterday was THE most beautiful day of the year so far, and we decided that it completely desered a photoshoot.

winter retreat!!

I'm baaack!

alright, i've been back for a bit, but i'm just a great slacker when it comes to blogging. i'm here now~

i attended my fourth winter retreat this past weekend with 5 of y friends from my youth group, and we.had.a.blast. i mean, even apart from the rain and mud and altogether lack of sunshine (let's just say we were REALLY happy the times the sun DID come out!). we played a lot of fun games and heard so much great preaching from Dan Brubaker.

highlights.

i met a couple really great people.

i got to re-connect with a lot of people i hadn't seen in months.

it wasn't completely freezing this year (although we did get some beautiful flurries about 10 minutes before we left to go home...it was pretty perfect.).

i only fell down the basement steps once (trust me-big deal).

i learned a lot.

i dedicated a *giant* part of my life, something that has been burdening my heart for years, completely up to God.

that's the biggest thing. i mean, there are a lot of things i could have given up, but this is a really big deal to me. before, i was relying on myself to resolve the situation, trying my hardest in my own strength. but now i've realized that God is really the only one who can do anything about it, and if i leave it up to Him to work in His time, His will will be accomplished.

i am ever learning to rely on God to help me through each and every day and that i will learn more and more and more about Him.


                             

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my beautiful sisters

                                                                           Sisters.

seriously. i love my sisters, and i don't tell them that enough.

my older sister is beautiful and full of compassion and love. even though sometimes i'm a complete moron and can annoy the skittles out of her, she's so patient and caring.

my little sister is lovely and complete energy. i know i can rely on her when i need to run off some crazy. i will always remember the those times we wrestled and made up our own games when we were younger (sometimes we still do...)


tell your sisters you love them a lot.

BTW

by the way...

http://pinterest.com/h3llosunshine/

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Okay, so I understand completely that I have been lacking in every way of keeping up this blog thing I've got going on....

But anyhoo, here I am!

Since I have last talked to you, a great lot has changed! Last year I lost some friends, gained some friends (and a beautiful friend of a stepmother!), and grown much closer to God.

Right now I'm basically in the January routine of every year... School, church, music... the norm.

School- Boring as ever. The point has come where I have given up on being excited at all about doing really messed up Home Ec. assignments and learning about Chinese Dynasties. BUT I am, as always, extremely privileged to have these opportunities to learn and grow in knowledge (even if some of the knowledge is completely useless in my eyes....).

Church- Working on catching up from being in Texas for 6 weeks AND being sick at least 3 nights of Proteens this year! But I am striving to get back up and keep going. At the beginning of this Youth Group year, I was kind of apathetic toward all of it. I didn't not want to do it, but I didn't really care. But every day I am getting closer and closer to God now that I have brought back the fire of my desire to be in God's Word and learning about Him. I can't believe I went so long feeling the way I did about my devotions and about Bible reading! I am absolutely amazed by how much I have learned in the past few weeks of getting back into it. I'm also glad that I have a God who forgives me when I am completely ignorant of Him and what He has for me.

Music! I am of late getting back into my flute playing. I think the only reason I've been slacking is that I don't really have any new music, and I don't really have a teacher, so I'm not learning anything new. But I'll be back in the church orchestra and in whatever I can get into. I've had an alto sax. for a couple of months and I'm going to try to teach myself to play it (although, as Facebook videos prove, I'm pretty horrible so far...). And I'm getting a trumpet (or cornet-she can't tell) from my Aunt! It's supposedly very old, but I can deal with that! I'm very, very excited as I've wanted a trumpet for a long time. Next is a cello!!



Life is beautiful.

smile often,
lynn (: